Happy 2012!
It's been a while since I last posted anything. June to January is a long time. A lot happens. 2011 carried a lot of events with it, both on a worldwide level as well as a personal one. I blogged about some of the events surrounding my homeland - we're approaching a year since the outbreak of the revolution. I remain hopeful and passionate about change to come.
But this time also carried other "revolutionary" changes with it for me. Most importantly, I went from the very single Miss Sherien Zaki to the very taken soon-to-be Mrs. Sherien Joyner. Shocking I know. I'm still scratching my head and wondering how I've become "that" girl. The practical one has gone bridezilla. The tomboy now gets lost in dusty rose, pastel corals and shades of antique gold. Emotional rollercoaster? No ride has been like it. Team-lead by day, I find myself yearning for late night Pinterest searches of - what else - all things fairytale wedding. Bathroom reading has shifted from true life stories to true wedding stories, and my guility pleasure reality TV show has gone from "The Bachelor" (love to hate those girls) to "Say Yes to the Dress." (should I have chosen that dress?). Not to mention plans beyond the wedding and honeymoon. My life has gone from "me" to "we" overnight.
Am I still in there? Luckily, there are out-of-body moments where I just watch myself go through the wedding planning motions. At least that part of me knows the other is a sight to see rather than the norm. I wonder what my fiance thinks. Maybe I should leave that one alone. I'll ask after it's all over and we're on a beach somewhere.
To all my single girlfriends, I know what you're thinking: We love her, but she's one of "them" now. Here's the good news: despite the fear of imminent schizophrenia, I'm still Miss Sherien Zaki inside of that "we" cloak. Don't get me wrong, I love this new phase of my life, but I'm quite aware of the distinction. It's as if I'm an undercover single gal exploring the other side of life. Even if I love it and plan to stay here, I'm still "Sherry from the block." OK, I'm starting to feel better. Maybe I can sleep now...
